Monday, July 31, 2006

Lake excavator for hire!

Ok, it's an interesting title.
But it helped me reach my weight this morning on my Monday weigh-in.

I reached 165 today! Hurrah!

I *think* it might be because I had to dig in a lake this weekend. See, I stepped on a stick and it hurt. I figured that someone else might step on it too, so I better dig it up. Except that the stick was attached to a log, which was attached to a tree. By the time I figured this out, it was too late, I was stubborn and I wanted to dig it out.

So you have to picture this....I'm neck deep in the lake, directly in front of my house. Now, it may have been unlikely that someone else might have stepped on the stick, but because I'm so short, I thought it was more likely that someone (everyone who is taller than me, which is quite a few people) *would* step on it.

So I dug out an eight foot log out of the lake. The look on everyone's faces when I got it out was really funny. I still can't believe I did it. But it was great exercise. I had to hold my breath, dive and dig. And when I was bobbing in the water with just my head above the waves, I was digging with my legs. It was great exercise and I think it helped me shed some pounds. Besides that I was careful not to over eat in Vermont this time.

I also went for a long walk with my cousin Maeghan (who is getting married this fall!) and we had a great long chat. I was closer to my cousins when I was younger...I didn't realize until this weekend how much I had missed that.

And a thank you to my Aunt Kathy and my Uncle Larry who gave me the air filters, they will be put to good use! I'll write more later...I think.

Friday, July 28, 2006

Good news, bad news

So last Saturday I got on the scale and saw 165, down 5 lbs from my start made me so happy...I jumped around, and got excited about weight loss.
If only I could hold it until Monday...when I would have to get back on the scale.
Mondays are the official scale day after all.

I went to the gym both Saturday and Sunday because I had skipped Friday. And I was able to increase my workout to one hour. This was due to getting used to the workout and being so excited about the 165.

So the bad news? Monday morning I was back up to 167, which meant no weight loss.
Blah. So I have been feeling crappy about that all week.
Went to the gym Monday and Tuesday for an hour. My sister went with me Monday, so she is witness that I am a crazy woman and I do sweat for an hour. FULL HOUR.

I didn't get to go Wed because I had a Pampered Chef party, and then I didn't get to go yesterday because I had a skin appt out in Natick. Late nights. And there is so much going on at work too.

So I feel yucky today. Haven't even been near the scale. But I will be going after work (and going for an hour) and then grabbing a quick shower and then up to Vermont.
I'm bringing my PCOS nutrional book so I can continue to research how I am going to survive when I can't eat so many things.

Oh yeah, and I started to use Fitday (great program, want more details, let me know) but I couldn't use it at work, I called Tech Support, they are sending me a copy. Fitday is something I may need to use for the rest of my life. It tracks what you eat (like a food diary) but will also tell you if you don't get enough of something. And since I can't eat some may help me discover if I am not getting enough of a certian vitamin or mineral. Good I just have to make it work. And I need a USB stick since I can't run the program at work for whatever reason and I fried my USB stick.

But I have no cash because I pay my first mortgage payment this weekend. I am going to be so broke. But I have a home!

What else? Oh yeah, I accidentally ate peanut butter yesterday. I was at a meeting for Dunkin Brands (out in Holyoke, didn't get home until 6pm, that's why no gym) and I had a nice lunch of salad...romaine lettuce, mozarella cheese, cucumbers, tomatoes, and a little bit of bacon sprinkles (bad Dani! bad!) and some ranch dressing. I probably should have skipped the ranch dressing but the other choices were italian (which I didn't feel like having) and french (which I don't like).
So because I had a nice salad, I thought one sugar cookie couldn't hurt. Except three bites into it (I was distracted, talking to my boss) I realized it was peanut butter. I put the cookie down, and felt bad about it the rest of the day.

My other desert choices? Snickers, 3 Musketeers, chocolate chip cookies, fudge brownies. Oh, were there healthy choices? Yes...apples, pears, cantalope, and strawberries. I couldn't eat those either. I hate allergies. I hate PCOS.

I am going to have a diet of water, chicken and vitamin supplements. I can see it now. Oh yeah, and steamed brocolli...that really isn't so bad.

Monday, July 17, 2006

more griping.

To all those who tell me to work out harder, less. Smaller portions.
I quote the website. SO BACK OFF. (yep....still pretty cranky)

"Almost always, individuals with PCOS gain weight very easily and lose it only with great effort. Everyone knows that some individuals consume large quantities of food and never gain weight while others work hard just to stay ‘fat’ instead of severely obese. Vanity keeps some from weighing much more than they might, if only they were less vigilant. When seeking medical help for weight control, too often, the obese patient has been told to exercise more, or to eat less. Clearly, this over- simplification fails to take into account the high likelihood that individuals vary in the way their body utilizes calories. Some use calories less effectively, or store fat more easily. A key to the way the body uses energy is insulin. Insulin is a hormone released by the pancreas in response to the breakdown of food into sugars, proteins and fats by the digestive system. Insulin promotes the storage of fat to ensure a constant source of fuel, calories, ensuring the body’s most efficient operation. As described in more detail below, PCOS increasingly has been linked to abnormalities of insulin and glucose metabolism. In the past, this may have been an adaptive advantage allowing survival against cold, or famine. Now, in part, a response to today’s sedentary lifestyle, obesity has become a genetically related disease, which may be treated, but only with great personal conviction and effort. Certainly, weight loss can only be achieved when caloric expenditure exceeds caloric intake, but genetic, metabolic and environmental alterations make this a much more complex equation. Hopefully in the future, there will be relief, which is both more effective and less painful than our present treatment strategies. "

And now all those who read my website know way more about me than they ever did before. But you know what? People should know about it.

PCOS, Food Allergies, High Cholesterol with a family history of Heart Problems. YAY!

I remember when I was a kid, and I had perfect attendance in school. I was so healthy back then....yeesh.

And the beat goes on....

No change this week. It's really depressing and I am trying very hard not to be depressed about it. I go to the gym. I reduce the amount of food I am eating. (If I eat too little, my friends accuse me of starving myself) and when I go to the gym twice a day I'm told not to be obsessive.

But it's hard. And the reason? PCOS. Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. It's the leading cause of infertility among women. It causes middle weight gain (only women going through menopause know what that is like) hair growth where you don't want it (like a beard), male pattern hair loss (thank goodness I don't have this problem), acne, heart problems, diabetes II and mainly just ticks me off.

So I'm trying to not to get down on myself. But I'm not allowed to eat anything and I'm not losing weight. And my boyfriend is italian and loves his pasta. Once I explain that I really can't eat the same way he can, he is much more understanding.
Except now he wants homemade pasta from scratch...the man is teaching me how to cook.

So no weight loss. Boo. And yes, I'm cranky about it.

New medication started yesterday should be interesting to see what happens. It's supposed to lower blood pressure (I don't really need that), raise your potassium (I don't need that either), but it also blocks that androgen hormone that causes the problems. Maybe it will help?

Friday, July 14, 2006

Food vs Morals

Here is a great article about the whole food moral thing.

Meat is one of the few things I can eat. But I worry about the treatment of the animals. I call myself an animal lover...and I love cows. But I also love my leather purse and shoes. Does this make me sick and twisted? Or simply ignorant for not knowing how these items are really made? I don't know.

You will need to cut and paste to get it in your browser.

Anyway, a great article:

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

one pound

So I tried to update yesterday, but I was very busy at work and there were connection problems at home.

So I lost one pound since last Wednesday, not too bad really. And I am predicting a huge comeback for next Monday. (I have to go into Boston tomorrow, and I'm planning on doing some walking while there.)

So I had a doctor's appt last Friday. My doctor was impressed that I am working out (and she noted I lost weight since my last visit) and that I am trying to change my diet. However, she recommended that I don't change my diet too much. She said the reason for this was because when you start changing the amount or types of foods that you eat, it puts your body into panic mode, and it will shut down and try to hang on to every little fat cell. At this point (according to my doc) your body thinks it might starve. So she said no diet ever really works. She said your body will eventually get used to whatever it is you are eating or depriving yourself of.

So she said exercise is the key to everything. She also said I could eat whatever I want as long as I exercise. (hello pizza!!!) She told me that the last thing she was going to do, was to tell me yet another food I wasn't allowed to eat. She said I have enough food issues, go eat what I can and what I want (within what I can.)

Yay! The doc made me feel better about everything.

And then Sunday night I walked for an hour, biked for 30 minutes. Monday morning, up at 5am, eliptical for 30 mins. Monday night, walked for an hour at Home Depot and Lowes. They have way too many products...and way too many different sections to keep everything you are supposed to use to clean granite. Cleaner is in one section, polisher in your granite sealed? I don't know...the people who built my place weren't that bright, probably not. Okay, you will need sealer. And of course that was in a different section.

At that point I found Anthony (we were at Lowes) and he said, let's go to Home Depot, I have to return that part. So then I did the same thing at the Depot.

And then I got up at 5am and rowed for 30 minutes at an increased setting.
And oh yeah, my eliptical level went up from 1 to 3.
I can exercise...but can I lose weight? co-workers are eating good foods...bacon...peanuts...apples...yum!
(I have yogurt. weeee.)

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

No Change this week.

So no change on the scale this week. I blame the long weekend in Vermont with no gym. Plus all the good food. When will my parents learn that they buy too much food?

And I hate fruit. More on that later.