Have you ever wondered about the phrase "Having it all."?
I know I have. Recently I have started looking around me and wondering, why do I want it all?
Having it all is a lot of hard work!
So I have begun to think that I need to redefine "Having it all". Or at least I need to redefine what that means to me. My "all" may not be the same as your "all".
The problem is that I have had that same "all" definition my whole life. I can't just flip a switch and change my way of thinking.
I'm not a quitter, I'm a go-getter. And I like to rise up to challenges.
(really, please don't tell me I can't do something....because then I go all crazy and think I have to do it just to prove to you that I can do anything.)
Recently I decided I was going to "give up" something. But really what I was doing was picking something else. It will mean one less thing for me to do or worry about.
Why do I feel the need to do a million things anyway?
I once had a friend in high school who got C's and D's on his report card, and I knew he could do better. I asked him about it once and he said "why should I work hard all the time? I can get C's and D's without trying too hard and every once in a while I get an A or B and everyone rewards me for it."
At the time I thought he was just settling for being mediocre.
But as I get older, I wonder....how happy is he with life? He seemed very happy back then.
I stress about life WAY too much.
Sometimes I just need to let it all go, stop working so hard, and not worry so much.
And maybe just do a little less.
So what is all this rambling about? I decided to stop doing one blog. I wasn't the perfect fit for it and I wouldn't be the perfect fit for it unless I could dedicate more time and energy into it. And well, I have other things I need to do first. Like my real job. And taking care of my family.
It was really tough to "let go" and to admit that I couldn't do it.
And once I stop thinking about it, maybe I can relax and enjoy myself a little bit.
After all, what is the purpose of life if we aren't happy?
Stop stressing Dani!
And for once, instead of Dani Do It, maybe I should be Dani Don't Bother. Go have a drink, sit in the sun and just watch time pass you by. Sigh.