You can tell when I'm busy....or unmotivated....or feeling depressed. Or having writers block.
Or just plain don't feel like writing here.
But right now...tonight...this feels good. I have emotions and feelings and a moment I need to capture.
I had a not-so-good-day at work today. Tomorrow may not be much better.
And tonight...all I really wanted was a break before my temper got the better of me and some innocents (my kids...dog....spouse) bore the brunt of my emotions and temper.
But I didn't get a break.
Because I have two goofball kids who need me.
We got home and I made dinner. Hubby came out of his office and started talking to me about my day. All of a sudden I found myself running circles around the kitchen cleaning while I vented about my day. So at least one good thing came of it...I did a little cleaning.
But still...I needed a break. The kids were mostly done their dinner at this point.
I figured now was my moment for a break. I told him, just five minutes. I went into our bedroom, in the dark and laid down on the bed.
Hubby tried...he really did. While I was lying there, I overheard him telling his business partner that they needed to move their meeting to 7:30pm (the kids bedtime). I immediately jumped out of bed.
Not because I didn't need the break anymore. And not because I felt obligated.
But because I felt grateful that he understood how horrible my day was...and he was willing to push off work (he runs his own business) to help me. And I appreciated that more than anything.
I brought the kids upstairs...and I let them run around in circles screaming and laughing and playing and climbing up on the furniture....I probably shouldn't let them climb the furniture....
We had a quick facetime chat with my parents. I was hoping to show off how silly my kids were and maybe do some more venting about work....but they were enjoying a dinner with my Aunt and Uncle. So instead I just showed off my kids.
We snuck in this selfie before bed.
I keep looking at this picture.
Then I went downstairs and finally realized I was hungry. I made nachos and cracked open a beer.
Nachos + beer + SNL. Starting to feel better.
And halfway through my beer I realized I wanted to write a blog post before I got too tipsy.
SO here I am.
My day seems better now. :) Thanks for reading.